NnN。

alrighty, time for update i guess?

things are going great, as far as im concerned. sometimes i really do feel and think: "oh yes, this is how it should be and how it should feel like. im so glad i found it and im in this." but also at times, i do feel a little bit suffocated and just wana get out. not for good, just for the time being.

i dont mind the occasional bump or fall. its how we get back up again on our feet that matters more, it can make us stronger and take us higher. and i believe it has.

everything else, in good state. nothing i could ask for more? other than the shopaholic problem, but im willing to just let it flow for now ^^

uni, feels rather stressful but yet content-full. maybe im trying to impress everything too much rather than just relax and go with the flow. which i shall start from now.

androgynous style. hair, fitting, bag, sunnies - everything to my perfection!

must be my next purchase of fragrance! has been delaying it for almost a year now.

some nice quotes i stumbled across today:

"Dance as if no one is watching, sing as if no one's listening and live every day as if it were your last."

"There is no better indication of a man's character than the company which he keeps."

"Never let yesterday use up too much of today."

"Dreams are real as long as they last."

"Every cubic inch of space is a miracle."

i am happy. truly happy, grateful, glad. glad that i, found you. met you. being able to be with you. and you, feel the same. but still, i am scared of when that day comes. i hope it never comes. i still wish/hope you could be better. i feel bad about thinking this way when you are so content and satisfied with what i am. but as the person i am, i always want more.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

- Marilyn Monroe

i think, i am ready. ready to give you my best, my best that you sure as hell deserve. i am ready, ready to say "ily."

他會是我一直想要的那個‘他’嗎？或許是吧？我應該是幸運的，幸福的，快樂的。我該相信他吧？

我，害怕，怕我陷的太快太深，無法自拔。但是他的擁抱很有安全感，我沒有擁有過的。這就是所謂的真心喜歡吧？希望這就是我一直想要的。不過那又是甚麼呢？人從來都不滿足。

what am i getting myself into? is this what i thing? is this gonna end up just like anything else i've had experience before? or is it really time for change now? time to change everything, for the better?