NnN。

Calvino once said: "I guess for me, to see a place clearly, I ought to distance myself from it, to leave it."(not the exact same quote but sth like this). Well I say, for me too. It's just so much easier to see something/think of something clearly when you're not the person involved (but I mean ofcourse, not to judge when you don't know about the whole story). There are no emotions, no personal feeling or whatsoever involved so it keeps your head clear, helps you to think more logically (and theoritically the right thing to do) rather than based on pure emotions. It always occurs to me that when something is so hard to me to think of/do/decide, a few months down the track, it's simply just not that hard anymore. So I guess a break from everything in general is good sometimes. Gets your head out of the water once in a while to sort out strays of thoughts...etc

Are people just NEVER satisfied with the status they're in? Is it the so-called 'greed'? Or maybe they just simply want better for/out of themselves. Sometimes it's just as simple as: you have A but your eyes are on B, once you've landed on B, you realize how good it was to have A.

一直以來都喜歡Tao Okamoto的髮型, 但是之前下不了決定到底要不要剪掉. 畢竟真的是很短很短 and I've never had my hair THAT short although I've always had short hair. 但是最近因為多方面的因素，我下了決心把頭髮剪成了Tao Okamoto style.

有點感覺像是變了一個人似的，感覺不一樣了．很多人（尤其是男生）看到了都很驚訝，不過習慣了就好了．甚至還有一個對我說: "You look like an artist! Like a designer or something." （哈哈，這樣不是很好嗎？）女生大多就是說適合我／看起來很different／好短啊...etc

BUT I like it, and that's all it matters.　都說剪了頭髮是要忘記失戀的痛苦回憶，但是in my case，我就是做一個better self!

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

Let it go, hold on tight. Idk, which one? Just thought when it's over, it's starting again. Can't belive this is happening to me again. But this time, I have the ball in my court, my turn to take control, to win the first place in this 'race' or this so-called 'game'. The less I'm into it, the more 'fun' and less 'painful' it will be. We will see...

真的是好久好久沒有來到這個可以讓我‘靜心’的地方了. Just sooo~ caught up with assignment, work & projects. 所謂的大學生活之living hell才剛剛開始吧。

不過我喜歡這樣忙碌，感覺很充實、很有存在感。不在像是以前閒的發慌，每天都是‘飄’過去的。 Now, it's living to the fullest. 而且忙起來就沒有時間發呆、胡思亂想一些有的沒的，快樂了很多很多。多少事情不去想也就不在乎了、無所謂了。有了更多的時間to focus just on me, myself and I.

Identity is like a mousetrap in which more and more mice have to share the original bait, and which, on closer inspection, may have been empty for centuries. The stronger identity, the more it imprisons, the more it resists expansion, interpretation, renewal, contradiction. Identity becomes like a lighthouse - fixed, overdetermined: it can change its position or the pattern it emits only at the cost of destabilizing navigation. 

－ S, M, L, XL